Welcome!

Hello and thanks for stopping by my blog. I have started this blog to document my journey through gastric bypass surgery. This first post will have a lot of information about myself and will most likely ramble on. Which I do apologize for; I need a starting place and putting it all out there is most likely the easiest.

I have struggled with weight issues for as long as I can remember. I think I was about 10 the first time I joined Weight Watchers and from then on out I have tried them all. I had bulimia for 6 years. I know it was a very unhealthy way to lose weight but I looked my best during those years. I felt so good and had so much energy. I want to feel like that again.

This is a society where people will judge you on how much you weight and how you look. I do not like to be stared at nor excluded. The “peer” pressure is fierce and as if that wasn’t enough I have family members that make comments about my weight issues that truly make me feel unattractive and like a failure.

For example we recently went to a wedding and the comment from this family member was “You do so much to make yourself look pretty but in the end you are still just fat.” I just smile or laugh it off but deep down inside it really hurts. This is the same person that ignored my eating disorder and often asks me if I miss the way I looked when I had it. Of course I miss being fit and attractive!

I have lost weight many times in the past but have never kept it off. This past year I watched my dad die a horrific death due to coronary artery disease. This is what ultimately pushed me into researching GBS. I want to get married, have children and be alive to watch them grow up. The path I am headed that will not be an attainable goal. I currently don’t have any underlying health issues and I want to improve myself before I do.

I hope you enjoy this journey with me!

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Beth